Not sure where this day has gone. Not sure where any of them have gone. They tumble at me, one by one...and I spend some time in them doing mindless things, purposeful things, profound things, lovely things...and then they go, each one follows the last. They follow each other out of my life, single file, and then they mesh together so that I can't really put my finger on any one day. I can't quite remember what I did or when I did it. Was it Saturday? Or was it Wednesday? They feel the same in my memory. They feel the same while I'm floating through them.
I've decided, only recently, that I have the best job in the world. And I am barely just tasting it. I'm just beginning to feel the water with my toes. Just getting a little sprinkle of my life ahead. What will it look like next year...next week...tomorrow?
Just when I think it can't get any better than this...today meshes with yesterday and I find myself floating in the Present...and I look around, and I consider my job...and it feels purposeful, and profound, and lovely.
3 comments:
Lovely, lovely! Mom can be the best job ever. Even for those of us (and I mean ME) who rarely feel cut out for it. I am amazed daily and have been for the last 10 years. And in a way, they've ALL been spent just the way you describe - so that on occasion, I focus and realize that he's almost as tall as I am... and how could that have possibly happened in such a short time????
You are so cut out for this work.
If I'm being honest, I have to say the days, when my kids were really young, often lasted FOREVER. I always found a fair amount of boredom, where my brain wanted to do more than watch me lay on the floor and mess around with my lovely baby.
I would like to add that you are doing a mighty fine job. I am so happy for you and glad you have found the ability to take in each moment. Love to you and Kep!!
xo Amy
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