I can't fold a fitted sheet to save my life.

The end.

The Run

I was feeling not so normal today.  Some dizziness, a little lightheadedness, and waves of heat sporadically visited my chambers.  Well, for the most part I felt fine but then sometimes I'd feel the aforementioned.  

So, I told Ben.  He suggested I call into work and just rest.  I chuckled and shrugged off the thought.  But then he suggested it again a bit later...said we should just relax and claim the long weekend for ourselves.  

So, I called in.  and suddenly felt better :)  We had a beer and, after putting Ben down for a nap, Kep and I had our way with the jogging stroller, a pair of running shoes, and the solid pavement outside.  We ran and ran and ran!  Boy, did we ever run!  We passed driveway after driveway, as if the pavement was giving way and crumbling just behind us.  We were speedy, we made haste...we were lassoing the wind as it came at us and yanking it to it's knees, stomping it into the ground.  My heavy breath was like the strollers motor, getting faster with each step.  

Kep couldn't have been happier.

We smelled lilacs and cherry blossoms in bloom.  Our noses were delighted with the fragrance of fresh cut grass, hot wet pavement, and a sprinklers' chlorine mist.

My chest was tight and my legs exhausted, but I pushed on.  On and on until I knew we'd gone at least one miles...maybe a little more.

We arrived home and Ben was still asleep (he's such a good napper!) and so I lulled Kep to sleep and I'm gonna have myself a shower.  A shower, people!  That's two showers in two days!  Amazing, really. 

We'll have to figure something out for dinner, now that I'm home this eve.  One things for sure, we can't eat out at my place of employment :)    

Six months of CRAZY bliss

Six months yesterday.  Six months of smiling at him.  Six months of finally using those parts of my brain reserved for motherhood (motherhood parts of the brain are found smashed betwix the parts for bird-calling and syncronized swimming).  Six months of loving on a brand new, custom made human being.  

As always, I'm at a loss for words.

Our lives are so different now.  And I want desperately for all of this to be easy for us, but it's not.  It's so complicated and difficult.  And rewarding.  

So, what can he do at six months??  Does he have teeth?  No.  Is he crawling yet?  No.  Is he at least getting up on all fours?  No.  Have you started feeding him solids?  No.  Is he sleeping through the night?  No.  Has he stopped throwing up all the time?  No.  

But he's SO beautiful :)  

And perfect :)

And right where he should be with all of his gross and motor development.  And he smiles A TON.  He is so happy!  

He's putting EVERYTHING in his mouth...even my face, if I let him :)  He's scooting backwards during "tummy time".  He's using his voice all day long...especially the shrieks and screams.  He loves the bath.  And the dogs...he LOVES the dogs!  I'm a little worried for Indy and Chuck once Kep can get around on his own, though they love getting close to him too!  

Kep's eyes are still blue/grey.  His legs are ham hocks.  His hair is long enough to style :)  Sometimes he sports a faux-hawk, if the mood strikes :)  He is very strong, for such a little babe.  

He's very needy.  Not sure if it's exacerbated with the coming of teeth, but his neediness lately is much greater.  He's been nursing every couple hours during the night.  That could very well be due to a growth spurt too.  Whatever it is, it's difficult.  

Motherhood, thus far, is the most difficult, most rewarding thing I've ever done.  

Tulip Time

Kep loves our dogs...so when the Tulip Time festival came around, we thought we'd take him to see the animals.  He loved it!!  The best part though...his sunglasses :)  He's just so stinkin' cute in 'em!!

My Day

Five and a half months into it.  

I swear he's puked more than one thousand times thus far.  

He's the cutest thing I've ever seen.  Ever.

He makes me crazy.  Like, really crazy.

And he's the best thing that's ever happened to me.  Mostly.

What's the big idea with Mother's day anyways?  

Why did I want to spend it by myself?  

Instead, I spent it being a Mother...to the most curious, beautiful, heavy, shrieking, smiley, soft, cuddly, precious little baby boy.  

He melts my heart.  He's buried my soul deep within him. 

My energy flows into him, easily.

I'm captured.

Everyone should know these things...

I love our delicious little boy more than I ever thought the world would allow.  

I can't get enough of Smarties lately.  I eat way too many everyday.  I pride myself on being able to taste the different flavors.  I love the greens.

I logged into WMU's website two days ago just to check when fall registration opens.  I like being ahead of the game, you know?  So I was just checking so that I'd be ready.  Registration opened back in March.  Both classes are full.  And not just full, people...they have already taken extra students.  I think subconsciously I like making more work for myself.  It's gonna be a bear trying to get in now.

I would please like two hours in a coffee shop.  

I need a shower...bad.  Or badly.  One of the two, anyways.  Or both. 

I think it's okay to wear make-up.  I also think it's okay not to wear make-up.  But it's a damn shame that so many women won't leave the house without make-up on.  Or, they leave the house without make-up on and then feel unpretty because of it.  

Keplar looks like he can kick some ass when he wears his camo pants.  And that is the reason I put him in them. 

I currently have a toe infection and/or fungus and it totally grosses me out.  Doc says they might take the nail off after summer.  Gross.  

I am not okay with the way my tummy looks/feels since the baby.  I want my old tummy back.  I will probably still wear a two piece bathing suit and there will be whispers about the fact that I shouldn't.  Cause we are only supposed to show our tummies if they are tight and without excess fat/skin.  Society sucks.

I went for my first run yesterday since having Keplar!!!  It was pathetic...but I did it :)  

I'm still not over the fact that I had a cesarean.  I'm also seriously considering a homebirth next time.  Seriously.  

I love sunsets and I plan on seeing lots of 'em this summer :)  And I'm also gonna go to the lake a ton.  Not sure yet what "a ton" looks like, but it's gonna be a lot!  

I miss writing/blogging/journaling/reading dearly.  I wish I had more time for those things that fill me up.

Keplar fills me up though :)  He is seriously the cutest thing ever!

I could go on and on...but I won't.  Thanks for staying and reading :)

    

I'm busy lurking other places...

Sure liked this.  Yep, sure did.

Oh...and stay a minute to hear the song.  It too is something I like.